I never said I would write a masterpiece

Just that I would write and I have 61 days left to write and a really crappy first draft so I can touch it up and finish it. Practice makes perfect and you have to start somewhere so what if I don’t write something great? At least I’m writing and I’m finishing what I started and that’s the important thing to me right now, not quitting, not giving up.

Oops

I’ve totally forgotten all about writing. I haven’t been in on How to write a novel in 100 or less days in like… a week, I suck so bad! Seriously, tomorrow I will focus on my writing, on my story. I have to figure the plot out properly; right now it’s not working. I like my heroine and the “hero”, not sure he’s a hero but anyway… I liked the task for day 29 and I think everyone should give it ago, try to be as honest as you can (dare). I have to find out exactly what it is in the plot that isn’t working.

But maybe it’s not working because it’s all crap? It’s a possibility… I just looked at it and I just don’t like it. I think I have to toss the plot and come up with a whole new one, same some of the elements but a new story in the same environment with the same people. The people don’t fit the story… Well I guess it’s the people that don’t fit the story and not the other way around. Feel so stuck and unsure on what to do. When do you know to drops something and start something else?

Day 25

Everything was going pretty well until I finished my first rough draft, I wasn’t at all pleased with it. The story was all messed up and I really didn’t like the guy, he was such a cutie, such a goody goody and everything too damn nice, ew! So I had to start over and now I just don’t like anything, the story sucks and I can’t get it to work at all. I’m supposed to have this, 1, a commitment (…sort of yeah, I guess, whatever…),2, a working schedule (sure, kind of) 3, a story idea, (maybe, but it’s not a very good one) 4, a cast of characters (I do) 5, a detailed plot of the entire story (yeah right) 6, a short description of what your novel is about, (no).
This is not going very well… should I give up, again, and perhaps work in some short stories awhile? Do my four pages a day on something else and do this later? I don’t want to give up, I know all about quitting, I want to try something else and stick with something for a change.

Day 25

“…every player must have a reason…”

Day 13 Not sure that is the case for me right now. And I don’t know my characters as well as I want to. Right now I’m close on getting stuck… starting to doubt myself. I sort of finished a first (very rough) draft. I’m not finished by far but I kind of know where I’m going with the story, how it begins and how it ends. There’s loads of junk that need to get sorted out, changes to make… lots to do. Ah, just thinking about it makes me freak out. There’s no way I can write four pages when I’m rewriting, I should be glad if I can make one… feels like I’m failing. I need mood music or something… ah, I don’t know what I need…

A week of writing

And it’s been going pretty well but now it’s the real test, trying to find the time to write during the football. I have had a little trouble writing the four pages and wanting to make it to three pages per day but so far I’ve managed to stick with it and I intend to continue. Feeling pretty good, I usually don’t stick with things. Even the days when I have been busy with something else I have been writing some even if it hasn’t been four pages.

I made a little list of events that is supposed to happen in the story so even if I don’t know what to write I know it’s supposed to be something creepy for example so I have a little guideline and that really helps.

Day six

Almost been a week now and I have been writing every day, not four pages when I have been away doing other things but I have been writing and that’s the important thing. Today I was given a task, I’m supposed to take my favorite book in the same genre that I’m writing and read it, se what I like and why and so on. But I don’t have a favorite. In fact, I haven’t read a book similar to the one I’m trying to write so I guess I should look for some and read them.

Know any good teen books with spooky mysteries in them?

Four pages is kind of a lot…

Especially when you don’t really know what to write… I don’t think I will be able to do four pages per day and then I will feel like I failed and get upset and not write at all, maybe two pages is better? It’s better to write a little than not writing at all.

Day three (a day at the beach)

I think I have decided which story I should write and I’ll bring a pen and paper with me to the beach today when I’m off with “Elizabeth”, her baby and her mom. Then there’s something for me to do since I’m too lazy to shave my legs and haven’t owned a swimsuit for ten years. I’ll try and make a list of events for the story, sort of like a schedule so I know what to write later. (sounds like good idea right now)

My Compis is here!

And he’s working! I thought I had to wait to get internet but my brother fixed it right away. I defiantly need a new chair; I think I’ll mess up my back with this one. Today I have to figure out when is the best time for me to write and, “Be realistic in the time you plan, and then live by it.” Sticking with things has never really been my strong side I have to admit.

Evenings or midmorning… tricky. It’s less chance of interruptions in the evening but then there’s the chance that I stay up too late (I sound so old). Maybe I should try midmornings… I’ll write now and then I do the midmorning thing… crap, got plans tomorrow… So I’ll try the midmorning thing on Wednesday instead. But that’s the thing if I’m busy I’m most likely to be busy during the day so evenings might be better. I just have to get some self-control and not stay up all night long.

Evenings, write for at least one hour, and at least four pages per day. Let see how it goes and if it’s realistic.

How many times have I tried this?

I think it’s only two but it could be three… but let’s try it one more time. With my Compis (computer) arriving tomorrow (hopefully) I might get some peace and quiet to be able to do this. My main problem is just, which of all my stories should I work on? I wonder how many I have now; let’s do a quick count… at least 25, probably more.

This is day one and I have to make a commitment to write every day, to do my very best to finish this once and for all. But what story to work on…? That’s really tricky and I don’t know, maybe I should read what I have so far and see which one I feel for the most right now and stick to that one? I can work a little on the others as well but have one as my main priority.

I should clean my desk properly now, all the draws and everything so all I have to do tomorrow is to get the compy to work, that will probably take me all day. I hope my brother will be around to help me…